Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Walking contradiction

I'm a walking contradiction. Ask any of my friends and they will tell you that I'm a detail-oriented person, one that pays attention to the small things in a project. They will tell you that I'm dependable and trustworthy. They will tell you I will finish a project given to me. I remember details most people don't even notice.

But at the same time I am forgetful. I start many a project that I never finish. I start something with good intentions then leave it. How can someone be so opposite in her ways? Well, while walking this morning (I've started something here...we'll see how long it lasts) these were the thoughts running through my mind.

I walked a 5K last Saturday with some friends from church. Our choir director hosted an invitational run/walk. We got a cool t-shirt :) A 5K is just over three miles, that's it. But those three miles showed me how out of shape I am. That's where the walking this morning comes into play. I've decided, and I think with help from the 5K, that I need to get out of bed and exercise in the morning. I've allowed myself to gain too much weight over the last nine years. The scale has slowing but surely gone up.

One of the pictures from the walk on Saturday showed me with a major double chin. I DON'T WANT A DOUBLE CHIN! So, as of yesterday I started walking around my neighborhood. Mind you, I've done this before. It lasted about a week. This time I am hoping for a longer run.

Why can't I keep up with exercise? I know part of the problem is doing it alone. Guess I need to find someone who will walk with me. But most of my friends run. I can't ask them to walk. That would be unfair to them.

Here's to sticking with something that doesn't really have an end to it. I need to exercise my whole life, not just until a certain amount of weight comes off.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Self talk

Last Thursday, I started a new Bible study with some ladies from church. It's all about what we tell ourselves day in and day out. You know, those things you speak to yourself - I'm stupid, I'll never finish that project, I'm not pretty enough for him, I'm so behind, I'm a failure. I could go on and on with so many things we speak to ourselves in the privacy of our minds.

The problem with that is the majority of those things are negative. We, in turn, use those thoughts to build a life. We label ourselves according to the contents of those thoughts. And usually, they are not what God knows about us or says we are.

I'm being reminded that I must tell myself the truth. God's truth. If I listen to not just the world around me but myself, I will have a mind full of lies and junk. God wants me to build a life on His truth, His power, His provision, His grace and mercy. Most of the things I tell myself are not based on God's truth. I have to change that.

Monday, September 21, 2009

I'll go with that one...with a side of that

Let us pick from the thoughts floating through my head right now. Like a cafeteria, I'll randomly select some things to tell you.

Last week was the opener for many sitcoms and shows. Two of my favorites came back last Thursday night, Fringe and The Office. As always, The Office gave me some awkward moments to live through and silly situations. I'm reminded all the time of my real workplace. Fringe did not let me down, either. The writer have set up a great season. I love the cow. If you watch the show, you know exactly what I mean.

A Ladies Bible study started last Thursday night, as well. Everything happens all at once, doesn't it? This study is called Me, Myself and Lies. I look forward to getting to know the ladies in the group. A small group like this allows me to get past a simple hello in the hallway at church. Once again, God has brought a random group of women together for this one. But, as we all know, nothing is random with God!

My dear friend Mandy will celebrate her thirty-first birthday next Thursday! I've planned some fun stuff for her this Friday night. I have to pay her back for the awesome birthday present - Heart in concert! I promise you Mandy, you will LOVE Friday night.

I just want to say again that I love my church and especially the choir and orchestra. Never have I been in a church where the musicians were so close with each other and desired to minister to the rest of the members as passionately as this group does. I look forward to rehearsals on Wednesday nights. And truly feel like we minister to the congregation on Sunday mornings. Last night, the orchestra blessed us with a concert. They filled the stage area. Actually, they are growing and pushing the choir out of the loft! This is a great problem to have.

Has Nashville, Tennessee moved to Seattle, Washington? This constant rain sure seems like it. The sun is out today for the first time since Friday afternoon.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Flu vaccination

Just a quick question: how many of you, my few readers, get a flu shot each year? I've never taken a flu shot, nor have I had the flu. I'm not saying that to gloat or challenge luck/fate/health. Maybe I'm one of those that is less susceptible to illness. That could have to do with all the germs and dirt I ate as a child ;)

I'm simply curious about who of my friends takes the shot yearly, or occasionally.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Respect versus stupidity

I'm rather disgusted with Kayne West's behavior at the VMA's last night. I didn't watch the award show, but while checking facebook, I saw all the people commenting on him. So I went to youtube and found what they were talking about. If you have not seen or heard what Kayne did and said while Taylor Swift was accepting her award, you can easily find it all over the internet.

The incident: Taylor Swift won the Female Video of the Year award, beating out Beyonce. Halfway through her acceptance speech, Kayne walks up to the stage and take the microphone out of Taylor's hand. "I am really happy for you," West said. "But Beyonce had one of the best videos of all time." Then he hands the microphone back to Taylor and walks off the stage.

What?!?*%&^(#$*~#?! Who acts that way? Oh, yeah...Kayne West does, all the time. We have come to expect him to react when he is not the winner or doesn't like the outcome. I'm sure there were many people who thought other videos should have won, but they didn't storm the stage and take away a new artist's thunder! Grow up!

And to Beyonce, thank you for showing us you are a mature, grown up woman. You allowed Taylor to enjoy her moment when you won the Video of the Year award. Thank you for being the better and respectful person. Kayne's actions just show how immature and selfish and disrespectful he is.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Remembering my Grandma New

September is Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month. My Grandma New passed away from it in 1991. I was fourteen. I was devastated. My Grandma Smith passed away in 1969, right before my oldest brother was born. None of us knew her. Maybe that's why I was so affected by Grandpa New's passing. I had a great-grandma that was alive until I was in late elementary/early junior high, but I still had only the one grandma.

I miss her, still. She made the best pies. You know the kind, homemade crust, custard filling, meringue on top. She would make a pie for your birthday. She made really yummy biscuits, which was a staple in the house. That or cornbread. She introduced me to coffee. Yuck! Or at least that is what I thought at a young age. It's rather delicious now.

She kept a strawberry patch. I remember helping weed that stupid thing. But I loved the time spent with grandma. I remember one day in particular. We may have been weeding, we could have been picking berries. I don't recall. What I do remember is this: grandma's phone kept ringing. The first couple of times she didn't care. She walked back into the house and answered the phone. It must have been picking time, people were probably calling to check if she still had berries to pick. Anyway, she came back outside each time. When the phone rang one time she straightened herself, looked back at the house and said, "Well shit!" I looked up at her in such disbelief! My grandma had just cussed! I still laugh about it.

I also remember her singing. She had an old hymnal at the house and she would sit at the window and sing. Maybe that's where I learned some older songs, ones we don't sing anymore. Thank you grandma for giving me a love for singing.

One time while spending the night, my cousin Christa and I slept in grandma's bed while she slept on the couch. That couch was not comfortable for sleep. But she still gave up her bed. I remember her telling us a scary story, we laid there scared to go to sleep! Thanks grandma...maybe that's where my overactive brain comes from.

You know the powder that you get in a round container? My grandma had that. And whenever I see or smell those, I remember her. And I miss her all over again. I love you grandma and am ready to see you again!

Wednesday, September 09, 2009


My friend Mandy is an amazing friend! She took me to see Heart last night in concert! Wonderful birthday gift. My birthday is this Saturday, Sept. 12...just saying.

Ann and Nancy still have it. They still rock. Nancy still has a power house voice. Ann still rocks the guitar. She does a cute jumping up thingy when she gets into a guitar rip. They started the concert with Barracuda - AWESOME! Seriously - AMAZING! They continued with all the songs we wanted to hear.

The night started with a lady whose name I can't remember, last name is Grace. First name starts with an A. Anyway, she was really good. But, since I don't know her songs, I have no idea what she was singing, making it hard to be excited about her. She was good though, I'll have the check her out.

Alison Krauss came out at one point. She rocks! She is super talented. It was cool to see her up there with Heart.

The concert was at the Ryman. The more I go there, the more I like that place. My suggestion, always sit in the balcony. Much better seats for the most part. Most seats up there have a great view of the stage. And since the rows are tiered, you don't have to worry too much about a guy sitting in front of you with a big cowboy hat on. There was a guy there last night with one on...why would you wear one to a Heart concert?

So, thank you Mandy for a great birthday gift!

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Before speaking, read the facts

I'm a registered Republican. I vote in most elections, local to national. Most of the time I stand with my fellow Republicans. But ya'll! Really! Before coming out again the speech President Obama will make today to students all over the nation, please take the time to read his speech. I've included it here in case you haven't read it.

I have read it. And for the life of me, I can't figure out why people are in such an uproar. His speech is very forthright and uplifting. He challenges the students to work hard and not give up.

Monday, September 07, 2009

Lazy day

My cats are entertaining me right now by trying to get at a bug or insect in between windows. They have spent some time in front of the window, on their hind legs for a good part of it. It drives them nuts not being able to get to something right outside the window. They spend many hours in front of the kitchen window, watching a squirrel that chose to sit on the ledge and eat. They make a strange noise stemming from frustration. If you have a cat, you know what sound I speak of.

Long weekends are a wonderful treat! I slept in and haven't done anything yet. I might go out and eat lunch at a fun place. Don't plan on any housework being done. No work on anything today! I'm trying to get Mandy to go with me somewhere.

Hope everyone is having a great day!

Friday, September 04, 2009

Latest laser treatment

My mom mentioned last night that she hadn't seen any pictures from my recent treatment. Here are two from the day of...

I didn't take any over the past week. Sorry! This past week the dots have turned from black to dark red to light red. Right now you can barely see the dots. Over the next couple of weeks it will appear as though we did nothing. Then we should start to see fading. Right about now, you think the treatment was in vain because nothing appears different and the color of the birthmark is more red than before.

I'll be sure to post a picture showing the fading that occurred. I think there will be significant fading this time.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

A little David Cook to start the day off

David Cook won a couple of seasons back on American Idol. Over the weeks, he became my favorite singer on there. He's got a slight rocker thing going on, and I love it. So, this morning while flipping through channels, on my way to the weather channel (which I watch a lot...like my parents), I saw the music video for his recent single When you find you. Great song.

The video was shot in a style that is becoming popular. They record the scene then play it backwards. Now, I know that is not a new method but I have seen an influx of it on the television. Unlike many times I've seen this backwards play, it actually fit this song. One line says "When you find you, come back to me." This method just seems to fit what the song says. So props to the producer who saw what worked for this song.

I'm watching the news while typing this. I can see that traffic is backed up all over the city. I'm sure the rain has caused people to forget how to drive. Speaking of rain, my little kitty, Sugar, is hiding inside the couch. I haven't seen her this morning and probably won't. The weird thing is that Boots, the older kitty, is out and about. She used to hide at the first drop on rain. Guess they have switched places.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Challenge for myself

This month I will try my hardest to post something on here every week day. You may end up with stuff not written by me to fulfill this challenge but there will be something posted here.

The reason for this challenge is not just to post on the blog for posting sake. I need to vocalize lots of stuff. Get thoughts out of my brain and into the open. So, to start the month off...

Does anyone else find the lack of sitcoms on television annoying? Most shows are now reality based or game show material. Where have the smart script writers gone? There are a couple of shows hidden among the shows that require no brain activity on the viewers part.

I want a good sitcom back! Have we dumb down our society enough the past ten or so years that we no longer care to be challenged with controversial topics or quick whit? You would think so by a quick run down of current shows lists. A word to producers and writers: I can handle a story line that continues past one episode. And I can handle a grown up conversation mixed with humor. And I can process big words and deep philosophical ideas. So, give me a show that contains that. Thank you.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Payday shopping

Last night I went shopping. This is actually an unusual activity for me. I needed new shoes, like good ones. Ones that gave my feet support. Ones that gave me an arch since my feet are basically flat. Ones that are comfortable and can be worn with most casual outfits. Ta-da! Here's what I bought. I love the coloring and they are super comfy!

I also stopped by Lane Bryant after seeing a coworker with this great shirt on yesterday from said store. There is a cool zipper on the top, allowing you to make the neck opening as small or open as you like. I plan to wear it next week for the Heart concert my wonderful friend Mandy is taking me to for my birthday. By the way, my birthday is September 12, a couple of Saturdays from now. I like green, books and collect crosses. Just in case you want to know.

After the shirt buy, I found some great necklaces to accent the outfit for the concert at Forever 21. That store is overloaded with jewelry. I could waste a lot of money in there.

So, I will look amazingly hot at the Heart concert. And, my feet are very happy now.

Monday, August 24, 2009


Back on August 8, I took advantage of the sales tax free weekend we have in Tennessee once a year. It's wonderful! Well, I bought new sheets for my bed and a new extra pillow. I use a memory foam pillow but keep another one off to the side. One of my cats usually takes up nightly residence on that one.

I washed the sheets and put them on my bed Sunday afternoon. I slept on them that night. It was heavenly. They are 400 or 450 count sheets...meaning comfort :) But I didn't get to enjoy their softness and freshness again until thirteen days later. My grandpa passed away that morning and I house/dog/cat sat for some friends once I returned from his funeral.

I can't tell you how happy and anxious I was to get home to my bed, my kitties, my own everything. The friends I house sat for are great people, with a great dog and cat and house. Nothing bad about staying there. I just wanted to go home. I felt out-of-sorts. It was weird to come back from a funeral and immediately start house sitting.

So, last Saturday night I crawled into my bed with the new sheets and slept soundly. Like, really soundly. When I woke up on Sunday, I felt so rested. Then I took a nap on Sunday afternoon. I love my bed. And I love being back home.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

What a day that will be

My Grandpa New passed away this morning. He is now at peace in the Lord. Grandpa has been ready to go home for many years. Every time I visited him, he told me he wished the Lord would take him on home. Today, God answered that prayer.

As I mourn over this post, I also rejoice. Only a Christian can put those things together. In Christ, I have a hope. In Christ, I have joy that goes beyond the circumstance. Grandpa understood this. He knew in the Lord was his hope. The following song by Steven Curtis Chapman says exactly what I mean.

...Through the cloud of tears, I see the Father smile and say "well done."
And I imagine you where you wanted most to be,
Seeing all your dreams come true 'cause now you're home,
And now you're free.

We can cry with hope, we can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end,
And we can grieve with hope,
'Cause we believe with hope there's a place by God's grace,
There's a place where we'll see your face again.
We'll see your face again.

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything God promised us is true.

So we can cry with hope and say goodbye with hope.

We wait with hope and we ache with hope
We hold on with hope, we let go with hope.

You will be missed on this earth, Grandpa. But you are exactly where I long to be. Someday, we will be together again. As your favorite song says, "What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall. When I look upon His face, the one who saved me by His grace." And I can still hear you sing that song while sitting in your chair at home. Your voice was basically gone, but you still sang it will all your heart. I love you.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Surprise bubble busted

My mom's birthday is today, she is +%#/~ years old. I'm not putting how young she is on here, I'm not stupid! :)

I ordered flowers for my mom, they would be delivered to her workplace this morning. Mom works as a library aide at an elementary school. The kids start back later but the staff is there already. Since the kids aren't there yet, they don't work all day; knowing this, I made sure the flowers were delivered in the morning, to make sure mom got them.

Well...while talking to mom last night, she told me she was off tomorrow (today) on her birthday. What?! But the flowers are going to be delivered at the school, not the house! My well laid plans went out the window!

I tried to stop the delivery this morning but didn't get in touch with the flower shop until the driver was out and about. My mom's flowers are sitting at the school, awaiting her pick up. I had to tell my mom about the surprise so she would go by the school before the rest of the staff left.

I tried to be a good daughter and surprise my mom with pretty flowers. It didn't work. Oh well, she'll have flowers later on today.

Happy Birthday Mom! You're the best! I'm so blessed to have you as a mother. May you have many more years of happy birthdays!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Feline greetings

My kitties just wanted to say hi. Recently, Boots and Sugar were sick, but both are back to health. Sugar never stays still long enough to get a picture that is clear, hence the blurry image. But she is feeling better. She had an upper respiratory infection. So did Boots. Boots had a rougher time though. She has a chronic dry eye condition. Her eyes get dry and get scratched easily. Boots wanted to show you that her eyes are clear and tell you that all the medication she was on helped her a lot.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Still smiling

If I had a written out list, Steve Green would be on it as a person I want to meet someday. Well, I got to do so last night! I'm still smiling. My church hosted him and I was honored to sing back up with him on a few songs. For most of the evening, I was on cloud nine and everything felt surreal.

I could go on and on about Steve Green. Suffice to say, he is an amazing singer and man of God. He truly ministers to you. His song choices turn your heart and mind to Christ. Here is proof that I actually meet him.

Thanks to Mandy for the picture! Here is Mandy and Rachel acting silly, they say the caption for this picture is "Mindy gets to sing with Steve Green!!!!!!" Sorry for the blurring view.

My camera died a while back and a coworker gave me a camera for free. Well, that camera doesn't have a tighten and widen function. So, you can't see my face but here is a picture of us singing behind Steve. I'm on the second row, far right.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Role model to me

Growing up in the 1980's, I always saw Mikhail Gorbachev on the news. Yes, he was a leader in the feigned U.S.S.R. Yes, that country did not have a great testimony. But, every time I saw Gorbachev on the television, I felt a connection. If you grew up in that time period, you already know why. If not, this picture should explain.

In my hometown of Somerset, Kentucky, I was an oddity. Not a freak or weird person, but an oddity. The only other person I knew with a birthmark was the son of a lady my mom knew from working at school. He underwent laser treatments for his birthmark on the back of his neck and back. His parents are where my parents got the information to first investigate laser treatments for me.

So, whenever I saw Gorbachev's face, I would perk up and pay attention. He was an inspiration to me. Not his country or his politics. But his person. He. I saw through him that I could be in the public eye and be accepted for my abilities.

This blog tells of Gorbachev having laser treatments and surgeries to remove the birthmark. I'm a little saddened by this news. I wish him all the best, but it's like an icon or role model that you've held up being taken down. He is known for that birthmark. I understand he needs to do this for medical purposes, just as I am doing these current laser treatments to diminish future medical issues. But I'm still sad.

Friday, July 10, 2009


My coworker, Michelle, has a one-year-old boy named Micah. He is CUTE! He had some pictures done yesterday and mommy brought him by the office so we all could see him. He's just adorable. Of course, we all had to hold him :)

He was very content in Robert's arms.

He totally loved Zora.

Look at those curls! Love it.

He was smiling right before we snapped the picture. Isn't that just like most kids and smiles and pictures?!

Thursday, July 09, 2009

My hope

I have the privilege to sing with Steve Green on July 26 at Judson Baptist Church. An ensemble will accompany him on some songs. Steve Green has been a favorite singer of mine for many years. Sandi Patti and Steve Green tapes (yes, tapes) were always playing in my bedroom. My poor family had to listen to me attempt Sandi's high notes. They liked it much better when I stuck with Steve.

One of the song we will sing is from his newer album Always: Songs of Worship. Here are the lyrics to the song. Along with the melody, this song draws you into a worshipful attitude. This song describes where my hope lies, what my future holds.


One day eyes that are blind will see You clearly
And one day all who deny will finally believe
One day hearts made of stone will break in pieces
And one day chains once unbroken will fall down at Your feet
So we wait for that one day come quickly

We want to see Your Glory
Every knee falls down before Thee
Every tongue offers You praise
With every hand raised
Singing Glory
To You and unto You only
We'll sing Glory to Your name

One day voices that lie will all be silent
One day all that's divided will be whole again
One day death will retreat and wave it's white flag
One day love will defeat the strongest enemy
So we wait for that one day come quickly

We know not the day or the hour
Or the moments in between
But we know the end of the story
When we'll see

Your Glory Every knee falls down before thee
Every tongue offers You praise
With every hand raised
Singing Glory
To You and unto You only
We'll sing Glory to Your name

Another song will great lyrics:

Majesty (Here I Am)

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in Your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the presence of Your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that You give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm Your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Running in circles

My life has consisted of a continuous circle or errands this week. I'm house/dog/cat sitting for some friends this week. At the same time, I have two kitties of my own at home. Boots, the oldest, had to go to the vet on Tuesday and now needs medicine three times a day. Aspen needs to be let out every few hours and Boots needs her meds every few hours. Basically, I run around town all day caring for pets while trying to fit work in there somewhere.

On the bright side, their dog, Aspen, is a sweetheart and loves to lick you...all the time...on anything near her mouth...all the time. Keekers, the cat, is a sweetheart too. The times I have visited the house in the past, Keekers hid from everyone, so I didn't know Keeker's personality. I've found that Keekers is a gentle and laid back cat, fun to be around. Aspen is very obedient and sweet.

My roommate, Wendi, and I seem to run circles around each other, as well. Never quite meeting up. This week I've been house sitting. Last week she was in Florida. Today she leaves again for Florida. We really do lead separate lives.

Boots is doing much better! I won't go into the details but she had a cortisone shot on Tuesday and she has an ointment for the eyes. The ointment is working out so much better than eye drops. It's a fiasco to get drops in her eyes. The ointment goes in with little fuss from her. I'm definitely sticking with ointments from now on.

That's all you get from me right now. Bye bye.

Monday, June 22, 2009


I used to watch Jon and Kate plus eight on a some what regular basis. I ended up at home around the time the new episode came on and would watch it. Back at the beginning, the struggle to survive each day with six babies was interesting to me. Even though Kate was a smart mouth to Jon, I enjoyed watching the whole family interact.

Their children are adorable and they would make me smile with their cute sayings and facial expressions. But something has happened since the previous season to the one that started a couple of episodes ago. What in the world happened to this adorable family and the couple named Jon and Kate Gosselin?

On tonight's new episode, Jon and Kate told us they are separating. That news did not shock me, I was expecting it. What I wasn't ready for was their blase attitude about their marriage. The only thing they would talk about was the children. What about the two of you? Kate said Jon never talks with her about the trouble between them. This may sound mean but, after watching this show for a couple of years, I can see why he would be hesitate to converse about anything. Kate barks at Jon, calls out faults in front of people, argues with him in front of the kids. Would you want to talk with someone like that?

Now, before you go off on me with the previous statement. I'm not letting Jon off the hook, by any means. I've never been good at communication. Knowing this about myself, I work on it. I am better at talking with people than five years ago. What about Jon? Looks to me like he has never taken steps to improve in this area. A marriage that works demands communication.

Both Jon and Kate spoke of the last year being tough. A year. Actually the last seven months. Seriously? Seven months and your separating? What?! What have you done in attempts to reconcile with each other? Have you talked through any of the struggles? It appears that neither of them want to work through this. And that saddens me.

There are many other things I could say in this post but I'll refrain. I'm sad for them. I'm very sad for the children. They have to go to school with kids who have parents who watch that show. What comments will they have to live through because of their parents decisions? So sad.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

A little rant

“One of the most dangerous threats facing black America right now is quietly stealing our children at a young age. Incarceration is becoming the new American apartheid, and poor children of color are the fodder. So many poor black babies in rich America enter the world with multiple strikes against them: born without prenatal care, at low birth weight and to a poor, and poorly educated, teenage single mother and an absent father.”

This is from an article I just read on cnn.com. I agree that many black babies are born on a road that many times leads right to jail or poverty.

My beef with this article is the misplacement of what to do about it. From the above quote, I can site one huge area that will help with the volume the writer speak of – single teen mothers with no father present. Is it really so difficult for a parent to teach a female child to keep her legs closed and a male child to keep his ‘stuff’ zipped up?! I would like to see statistics on the parents of these single moms and absent dads. Did they finish high school? Are they on government assistance (first or second generation)? Is the father present?

And this discussion should be talked about within each race represented in the United States of America. I’m a white female but have many friends who fit the above description. Many parents do not instill into their child a moral code that, at the least, keeps them from becoming a parent before high school graduation. I know many people would scream at me for such a statement, but its truth. Sorry for not sugar coating it.

Many people say my suggestion for fixing this situation is naive and out-of-touch. So often society and media outlets tell us it is unreasonable to ask kids to abstain from sexual behavior until are young adults. It wasn't unreasonable for me! I simply chose not to do it. It's called self-control and making choices WAY before the circumstance arose. I find it selfish to bring a child into this world when you yourself are a child and can't support it.

OK, rant over.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Recommended reading

I love to read. Now I confess that I go weeks to months without reading a book. But, I always return to one of my dearest joys - a good book.

I'm in book two of a three part series from Francine Rivers titled "Mark of the Lion." The first book was absolutely wonderful. The character development was well done and she hooked me on the simple yet tremendous life of a slave girl in the height of the Roman empire, 70 A.D.

Book two has not let me down either. I only started reading it last night and I have it with me to read over lunch. For me, it's one of those books you can't put down even though the clock says 1:15 AM and you have to work in a few short hours.

Anyway, just wanted to recommend Francine Rivers to you as an author to consider in your next read. I would start with her spectacular modern telling of the book of Hosea titled "Redeeming love." I would read that book again, and I'm not one for re-reading anything.

Monday, May 25, 2009

The Furminator

A friend kept telling me how great this product was, so I finally bought one. I was a skeptical about it's lauded acclaim. But I have been won over. Here is a picture from tonight; Boots and Sugar got a quick combing. This pile of fur is a quick run over, not a sit-down-forever-and-get-everything kind of brushing. Imagine how much fir I would get from a thorough brushing!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Ready for some pictures?

I'm gonna take you on a little tour of the job I work some Saturdays and my bedroom. Featured: my kitties and weird art work.

On an average of two weekends a month, I work at an art gallery. The owner is also the owner of the company I work for throughout the week. If you live in Nashville, you should come by and check it out. It is...interesting.

When there is little foot traffic on a given Saturday, I have to entertain myself. This last Saturday, I did a photo shoot of myself. :)

Don't you need, desperately need a red lips mirror in your hallway? You know you do!

And you know you want this photo hanging in your living room.

Isn't this exactly what you've been looking for?

There are some cool things in the gallery, but you have to LOVE color.

So, I found an area rug for my bedroom! Finally. I've been looking, waiting for the right one, at a good price. Here is the cool one I found on sale at The World Market. Can you tell I like animal prints? My chair has a leopard print throw on it.

My cats have a new toy...I spoil them. Sugar is modeling the new jungle gym.She looks like a professional model. If she is, I never see the money.

Of course, I have to show you pictures of my kitties. Boots doesn't cooperate like Sugar does for pictures. You only get a turned head most of time, like this...

Then she got with it...

And let us not forget Sugar...

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Drinking problems

I might have a drinking problem...

My desk usually has this many drinks and cups on it every day. I know, I need to get control of this issue ;) And yes, I usually have them in a straight line...I'm a perfectionist!

Some of you are asking for an update on the birthmark laser treatments. Here is a photo from the weekend...

You can see a darker spot on the chin. The rest of the chin and the cheek are reacting great to the laser. I know you can still see the birthmark but the color is so much lighter than before. I will probably have a couple more treatments then give it a rest for a while.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Played out before my eyes

Thanks to my friend Mandy's insightful post, I am reminded of a scene played out in front of me on Saturday. I'm sure this thought will be in my mind all day, mulling it over.

On Saturday, Mandy and I found a spot on the Music City Marathon course that came really close to my house. We were there to cheer on my roommate Wendi and various others from church and work. We ended up surprised, seeing even more people we didn't know were in Nashville running the race.

While waiting for the people we knew to run by, we began cheering for people who were complete strangers to us. Some of the runners had their names written on them, that way we could cheer for them along the way. Imagine hearing your name, just as you think you can't run another 10 yards. You don't recognize the voice, but it doesn't matter. Hearing your name, knowing someone cares enough to cheer you on, gives you that extra boost of energy. The next mile doesn't seem so bad.

Hebrews 12:1 - "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,"

The chapter before tell us of people who were abused, tortured and killed for Christ's sake. That is the crowd of witnesses that compass us on our race toward the goal. They know what the race feels like. They have felt our pains and disappointments. They understand. And they know finishing the race is totally worth it. That is why they are there to cheer us on.

As I look back on Saturday, I didn't know these people running by me. But I was totally pumped to cheer for them. And when I saw someone I knew, my cheer was out of control. Just imagine the cheers going out for you today. The ones from people you don't know personally, but from people who have the same Spirit, same Lord.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Kitchen creations

Like most of my meals, tonight was a culmination of random decisions while pulling ingredients together. I'm eating a fairly yummy casserole-y thing. Let me tell you how we got here.

I had a pound of grounded beef in the freezer. It needed to be used. So...I cooked it up and threw it in a baking dish. I stood around a few minutes, trying to figure out what to do with it next. Finally, I decided to put some peas and corn in with it. Then I noticed a can of cream of mushroom. I saw some sour cream in the frig and the milk. Well, I thought a dollop of sour cream and a little bit of milk would be nice. In went those ingredients. Like all tv cooking shows, you have to add freshly ground pepper to anything you cook. So I did.

I was fairly satisfied with the concoction but it needed something on top. I had crackers in the pantry. There you go. I put it in the oven and just ate a bowl full of it. Pretty good stuff. Next time I would add a couple more things but it was good for a random mixture thought up on the fly :)

By the way, I had another laser treatment on Tuesday. We left the chin alone this time and worked on the cheek and part of the neck. Here is a picture.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Coffee, a wonderful thing

I share a coffee pot and coffee with a coworker. Michelle and I share an office and decided a while back that we wanted better coffee than what the company supplied for free. I know, you ask why pay for coffee when the company gives out free stuff. Well, you haven't tasted that free coffee...

We take turns buying the coffee; right now we are drinking Millstone Fog-lifter. Good name for the coffee. It definitely cleared my head and got me on the path to working. We buy Starbucks coffee, as well. I hate Starbucks coffee when brewed at the store. I think they brew it too long and as the day goes on, the coffee seems to take on a bitter, burnt taste. EEWWW! So, I was hesitate to try their coffee when Michelle brought some into the office. But I have changed my mind about Starbucks coffee. As long as you brew it yourself, it is wonderful!

Dunkin' Donuts has great coffee too! And you can buy all these brands at your grocery store. Happy coffee drinking, America!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

On the road again

Here is a low down on my schedule the next month or so:
This weekend - in Somerset to celebrate my brother Bryan's 40th birthday
Next weekend - in Somerset for a dress fitting for Christina's wedding
The following weekend - in Somerset for Christina's big wedding shower
The following weekend - working
The next weekend - working
The following weekend - probably on a retreat with a group from church
The last weekend of May - in Somerset for Christina's wedding

I will make many trips back and forth to Somerset. I usually get home about every three months, maybe every two. The next month, I will be there almost every weekend. Sure wish the drive there was more exciting than it actually is. The only time I enjoy the drive is in the fall, the trees are gorgeous.

Just a reminder: make sure the intended recipient of a text message is who you actually send it to. I haven't had the misfortune of sending a message to the wrong person, but someone I know recently did. Yeah, that friendship is probably over, seeing as how the message talked about the actual recipient in a not-so-great way.

Since I eat breakfast at work (usually), all my breakfast food is at work. I'm hungry right now. Guess this means I need to get going so my tummy doesn't kill me.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Just have to share

Here are two photos I took tonight. The first is what my cats think I am when home at night...a pillow. The second one is from my cool phone. Guess you could ask; why so blue?

Trial and error

Thomas Edison was once confronted about the multiple attempts to invent the light bulb. His response gives us the exact attitude we should always have about trying things and possibly failing. Thomas Edison didn't say something like I have failed so many times in these experiments, I should stop. No, Thomas Edison said "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."

Do you have that attitude when something doesn't go the way you planned? What if Thomas Edison had stopped after 9547 failed attempts? or 9999? How long would it have been before someone else found the right way? How would our lives be different?

Deep right? Well, my trial and error is not some big thing :) It's just me trying to make cream sauce. I have yet to master this seemingly easy task in the kitchen. Too much flour, the sauce is thick. Too much cream or milk, the sauce never thickens. Using mozzarella cheese instead of Parmesan, big failure. I wanted to have left overs to eat for lunch today but that will not be. I ate a couple of bites then decided I wasn't going to make myself eat it.

Is there something in your life you are still mastering?

And, I have a new phone. I love it...it's red :) It takes really nice photos, so here are some of me and my kitties. It does different colorings, so cool.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Start of another week

Yesterday was a great day! As a Christian, Easter Sunday is the big day of celebration. It's the whole reason I subscribe to Jesus as Lord. There are no words to rightly express how much His victory over sin, death and the grave means to me and all who call themselves His children. To quote from a song we sang yesterday, "My sin has been nailed to the cross of my Savior, where Satan has NO power; for God has displayed Him undeserved favor..."

I can just feel a long work week coming. Coffee will help the day get going. I need to get to work and brew some.

I'm not a Catholic but I wanted to exhibit some form of spiritual discipline during the Lent season. I gave up my beloved peanut butter, and for the first week I also gave up carbonated drinks. For those who know me well, you know what it means for me to give up peanut butter! I enjoyed a Reese's Easter egg yesterday and it was lovely :)

My cat is staring at me, wanting to sit in my lap as I type this post. She is giving a sad face but she will not win today. I need my lap for the laptop. She will have to wait for some cuddle time until after work today.

Hope everyone has a great week!

Thursday, April 09, 2009


I have slacked off with blogging. I'm sorry. I don't mean to ignore you, keeping you in the dark about my life.

I'm seeing results from the laser treatments! I will try to get a picture up soon. I'm watching the news as I write this. They are talking about a new laser treatment for nail fungus...huh? That just sounds weird but they are serious. It is a new procedure but if you have foot nail issues, ask your doctor about it. Anyway, the next laser treatment for me is in a couple of weeks. Hope the recovery goes more smoothly than last time.

Today UPS will deliver my new cell phone, just in time to play with it tomorrow while off work. Yes, I have tomorrow off work. No, I don't work for a Christian company. I think my boss sees it as a way to give us a break in between New Year Day and Memorial Day. I also renewed my cell service and will get more minutes for the same price. How does that work? I'm not asking questions though!

I just heard the Dan Miller from Channel4 news died! wow

I have to get to work. Bye bye.

Monday, March 23, 2009

I'm still here

Hello everyone! I'm still here. This month has been busy with not a lot of much but I've been busy nonetheless.

I had another laser treatment last week. I've been miserable since then. We increased the laser intensity and I've felt the difference big time. There has been increased scabbing and that makes the recovery worse. Scabs irritate the skin and make me itchy!!!!!!!! Last night I went to sleep with an ice pack directly on my skin...that's how miserable I've been. I'll survive though. You just might have to put up with some complaining on my part.

I will get on here again soon, just wanted to say hello to any readers who were wondering where I was.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Lessons learned

Last night was the last session for a recent Bible study. I thoroughly enjoyed meeting with this group of women from my church. The mix of personalities and ages was all over the place and it worked so well. I will miss spending time with them.

The study was from the sermon on the mount. Should that be capitalized? Anyway, my mind and spirit were challenged each week as truths that I already knew were brought to light. The challenge? Takes that knowledge and live differently. How many times have I sat through a Bible study and live no differently the months following? I know a lot about God, but I need to start living it in my everyday life.

I've been in a rut lately and hoped this study would kick me out of it. And it has! Something that has troubled me for years now is the intimacy I used to have with the Lord and now don't have. I was yielded to the Spirit and couldn't get enough of the Word. I kept trying to get back to that place, and would fail miserably. What God showed me was I didn't need to go back to that place, but that I need to move forward to a new level of intimacy with Him. The past was good but I can reach ahead for an even better fellowship with Him!

Monday, February 23, 2009

This side of glory

This past weekend, I made a quick trip to Kentucky to see my Grandpa New and the family and spend a girls night with my best friend Christina. Christina and I were going to meet in Bowling Green for Friday night and Saturday but those plans changed. While talking to my mom on the phone last Thursday night, she finally remembered to tell me Hospice was caring for my grandpa. What? How long? What's going on? Her answer...I really don't know, they've been helping for over a week or so, maybe two.

Change of plans and I'm on my way to visit my grandpa on Saturday. Short story: He has a bed sore that is very deep, and infection has set up deep down. The doctors can't completely cure the bed sore. The infection will spread through his body, eventually taking his life. He could pass away tomorrow or a year from now. It's a waiting game at this time.

I'm glad I was afforded this possible last time to see my grandpa alive and able to converse. He definitely appeared weaker, not as keen of mind. The man used to blow your mind with information about everybody and everything. I teared up as I kissed him and hugged him goodbye. I don't know if that will be the last time I see him on this side of glory. But that's where the story is different for me and those who belong to God. I have a hope that goes beyond this earth.

I'll leave you with a lyric from my grandpa's favorite song: "What I day that will be when my Jesus I shall see!"

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Another one bites the dust

This year is not proving to be my year in the technology arena. About two or three months ago, my laptop lcd screen met a tragic end called the floor. The screen was replaced and everything is good to go, thanks Brandon!

Now it seems my camera has turned its back on me and the batteries. Sunday night was a first at my church, a dodgeball tourney. Yep...a dodgeball tourney. Balls were flying everywhere, Mandy got hit in the eye by one. While taking pictures of this hilarious event, my camera stopped. No warning of impending doom, just stopped. The lens is still out and open. I can't get it to close. I've tried placing it on the charger, no luck. So, what does this mean for you? You get no pictures with posts...unless friends send me pictures.

Maybe I'll be able to afford a new camera later on this year. Technology is out to get me.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Itch, scratch, itch, scratch...

Here is a picture of me on Saturday and Sunday. The laser zaps have faded to a red shade, many of them are the same shade as the birthmark. A few of the dots have scabbed over, but that is normal. I'm still itchy but I can now rub the area without decreasing effectiveness. You cannot even begin to imagine how much these little dots itch! Last time I did a treatment on the whole birthmark, I thought I was going to go insane with the itching. Doing just the chin has been so easy.

By the end of this week, the dots will be gone, then fading begins. Let's hope the laser worked!

Friday, February 13, 2009

As promised

Here is a picture from yesterday. You can see how the bruising has subsided and I'm left with just the laser zaps. I'm into the itchy stage. Imagine chicken pox and not scratching...yeah.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Feel the burn

Today was my first laser treatment since 2001. I was delighted to see one improvement to the procedure above all, a tube of ice cold air for me to blow on my birthmark as they zapped me with the laser. I put a cream on an hour before the treatment, a topical anesthetic. It numbs the skin some but I still feel the laser hit the skin. Being able to blow that cold air on the skin made such a difference.

It was weird zapping only the chin area. All my previous treatments involved the whole birthmark, which includes the chin, right cheek, right side throat, right ear lobe and the upper part of the chest. Honestly, it was a piece of cake doing only the chin. And the treatment was over in five minutes. That's a lot faster than before.

Here are the pictures from today. The first one is after I put on the numbing cream, looks like shaving cream. The next one is after I apply some plastic wrap and tape. I have to cover the cream and tape it up, otherwise the cream dries up and it is way less effective. Don't I look great? Just to pamper myself, I stopped at Sonic for a Route 44 vanilla Dr. Pepper. I nursed it all day. The last picture is right after the treatment. Right now it looks like my birthmark is really dark. I'll post a picture every couple of days to show how the treatment works beyond today.

I took some Advil and slept the afternoon away. My cats loved having an extra "pillow" today. Now I look forward to days of itchy skin that I can't rub or scratch. Yeah, not fun.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Sushi time

I met a friend for sushi tonight. I love sushi! This place has great seaweed salad. You must try it. I want to share what the sushi dude made us for dessert. The little orange man was so cute in person! One of the fun parts of eating sushi is enjoying the art aspect of the food prep.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Long time coming

Let me share a little about my past so you can fully appreciate the reason for this post. I have two older brothers. Steve is six years older than me, Bryan eight years older. I grew up with Steve, we have some history. Bryan moved out when he was sixteen or seventeen, me around eight or nine. I don't remember much about living with Bryan before he moved out. We don't share history like most siblings do. We simply haven't been around each other and we don't get along all that well (read between the lines - we are a lot alike and clash). Needless to say, we don't call each other and stay in touch.

Fast forward some years, like up to 2007 or 2008...I don't remember exactly when, Bryan calls me at work and says he is in Nashville. What?! He was on vacation and decided to visit me. He what?! That had never happened before. We ate supper together and talked. I saw Bryan in a new light. He left town and I was left in awe that there might be a relationship developing with my brother. Isn't it strange to hear from a 30-something woman that she doesn't know her brother? Well, I didn't.

Fast forward to the present, as of Wednesday of this week. Bryan calls me and says he wants to come down for the weekend, or at least a day. Every time he calls, I have to remind myself that it may not be an emergency. That's the only reason he would be called me in the past...or to ask what to get mom for Christmas.

This time he is bringing mom with him. I see growth in Bryan, him wanting to reach out and socialize. Bryan is definitely not a socialite by any stretch of the word. I'm excited and happy for any communication and growth between us. I remember praying a long time ago that God would draw my family closer. I longed for a deeper relationship with each of them. And He has fulfilled and continuing to answer those prayers. Esty, if you are reading this, do you remember praying with me about that? You said one day I would walk into my parents house and realize it had happened. Well, it has.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Where's that hymnal?

I am taking from my friend Crystal's blog for this post. Even though I enjoy many of the new songs, I love singing through some old hymns. Many of them are packed with good, solid doctrine. I want to share some of my favorite hymns and the part I like most.

It is well
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

How firm a foundation
When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie,
my grace, all sufficient, shall be thy supply;
the flame shall not hurt thee; I only design
thy dross to consume, and thy gold to refine.

The soul that on Jesus hath leaned for repose,
I will not, I will not desert to its foes;
that soul, though all hell shall endeavor to shake,
I'll never, no, never, no, never forsake

God leads us along
Sometimes on the mount where the sun shines so bright,
God leads His dear children along;
Sometimes in the valley, in darkest of night,
God leads His dear children along.

Some through the waters, some through the flood,
Some through the fire, but all through the blood;
Some through great sorrow, but God gives a song,
In the night season and all the day long.

And can it be?
Long my imprisoned spirit lay,
Fast bound in sin and nature’s night;
Thine eye diffused a quickening ray—
I woke, the dungeon flamed with light;
My chains fell off, my heart was free,
I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.
My chains fell off, my heart was free,
I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

So many ideas...plenty of time

So why do you not see more posts on here if that is the case? Um...me being lazy is the answer.

My coworker gave me a calla lily tuber and pot for Christmas. I won't say I'm bad at gardening and such but I'm definitely not proficient in the area. The plant is almost two feet tall and growing. Yay! There is one area about to bud open, can't wait to see it! Hopefully the plant stay around for a while. Testing my green thumb here. :)

The first laser treatment on the birthmark is next Tuesday, February 10. I'm fine with having the treatment but not fine with the recovery time. Up until now, any treatment covered the whole birthmark. This time only the chin will be worked on. Hopefully that makes a huge difference in the level of discomfort. Advice from someone who has been there: don't let a dermatologist office convince you that a laser session will give a mild irritation to your skin. Don't believe it! IT HURTS! And it continues to hurt and burn for days. Then comes the itchy stage. I'm stopping now...I'm starting to itch just thinking about it. I'll post a picture of my chin after the treatment. You can take the journey of recovery with me. I'll post a picture every couple of days.

My workplace has to be one of the most random and crazy work areas out there. If you could only have been at the table during lunch to hear the conversations. It started out fine with discussion on running. I mentioned how my roommate is training for a half marathon. She is up the a good six or seven miles without stopping. Way to go, Wendi! Anyway...leave it to a girl named Melody to take an innocent discussion of running and exercise and lead us into a crazy discussion about medical conditions and things I won't mention here. My day is never boring or dull.

My daddy celebrated my 62 birthday yesterday. I sang Happy Birthday over the phone and told him I was bad for not putting his gift in the mail soon enough. He said, "Guess if I get it before next year's birthday, we're good." Sounds just like my dad.

I have many-an idea for posts. I'll get to them soon.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Courtesy versus the lack of

While at Target the other night, I noticed a new thing to be annoyed by while shopping. I'm always amazed by people's lack of courtesy or public decorum when they are in the middle of a store. My mother taught to watch around me, always knowing the whereabouts and movement of the people around me. Having witnessed many things in malls and stores, there must be some mothers who didn't see this as part of proper child-rearing.

Last Saturday I was standing in front of the socks at Target. You know, they have some cute socks! Anyway...while searching for the ones I needed, a noise kept piercing through the normal store sounds of music, cart squeaks and kids yelling for their mom. I looked to my right and saw a woman. I could tell by the mouth movement she was chewing gum. No biggy until I watched her make a bubble, pull it back into her mouth, then pop it. I had found the source of the noise.

You might think, Mindy, come on, it's only a bubble. People, I've never been around someone who popped so many bubbles in a row, so loudly! It was a constant stream of pop...pop...pop, pop...pop...pop, pop...pop... And she never noticed the MANY times I glanced her way, hoping it would cause her to stop.

Maybe it's the vigor of youth...or something...but how difficult is it to slow down as you approach the end of an aisle, as not to run into someone crossing your path in the main one? I know you have to stick your cart out into the aisle some so you can see if it is clear to go, but if you do this action slowly, you give the other person time to stop or slow down themselves. Otherwise, you end up running over someone, and if you are said youth, you never look back or even notice there was someone there.

This might be something unique to me, I don't know. I try to follow road rules when choosing each side of an aisle to travel down. Wouldn't it make sense to stay to your right? That way you avoid running into people or carts.

Talking on the cell phone seems to bring out the loud voice in people. Please remember that most of your fellow shoppers don't want or need to hear about your plans to go downtown tonight or the details of the show you played last week in Austin, Texas. Use the same level of volume as if the person was right next to you, because in essence, they are. That little cell phone of yours can pick up lots of noises, and seeing as how your mouth is right next to the receiver, it probably has NO trouble relaying your voice to the other person's ear. :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Rare glimpse

OK folks, I'm gonna share some pictures on here that most will never see. I know, you say it's the internet, ANYONE can see them. But...these pictures are showing only a small part of other pictures I'll never share. :) Coming soon are more rounds of laser treatments on my birthmark. I go to the dermatologist on Thursday to check on some issues I've taken meds for the past two weeks and to schedule the first treatment. I may have the first one during the second week of February.

What you see here is one, small dot on my chin. We did a test patch at the beginning of January to see how my skin reacted to the laser. So far, so good. Each picture was taken a couple of days after the previous one, for the most part. These are not the prettiest pictures of me, for sure. So...just know I'm totally opening myself up here and letting you see a not-so-great look for me. When I get a full treatment, the dot you see here will be multiplied by 50 to 100. The birthmark on my chin or cheek will be covered with those dots after each treatment. I'm anxious. I know the pain and irritation that comes with each treatment. Imagine having chicken pox, all in one area, on your face. Yuck and ouch!

Notice the last couple of pictures look as though nothing has gone on. What happens is for about a week, the birthmark looks normal, like the treatment never happened. Over the next couple of weeks, the spots hit with the laser show lightening. I'm still waiting on that part of the test patch we did.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Off to a not-so-good start

I joined a group on facebook to create some accountability in my Bible reading. The group is reading through the Old Testament together. I haven't kept up with the reading schedule very well. I'm putting this out there just so more people know of my commitment. I'm determined to get back on schedule!